The Ugly Duckling

Hey there. Thank you for clicking on this post link to read my most recent post since last July. I was having a 360 degree turning point of life which cause me to having a hard time adjusting with everything - especially the part of where I have to be away from my family again.

I just gotten a job at Kuala Loco (as per said by my bestie), and it's something I didn't expect to get. After months of agonising with my own self worth of why I haven't gotten a job, finally Allah answered my prayers.

To say the least; the hopes and prayers of that moment.

But then, the skies ain't always that pretty.

Recently, I just got back from home. It was unexpected one too. I suddenly went from here to there, but I'm forever grateful that it helps me to get on my feet back. Even after two months long of having episodes of mental breakdown (i didn't ask for it), indeed home for me are both a people/person and place.

Remember the ugly duckling story that we used to read when we were young? Or at least told orally by our mother or father or granny before we went to bed? 

And so one day, the life of ugly duckling was seen as something pretty weird. Just because its different from the other, the ugly duckling was demoralised, being look down by people who doesn't understand the things that they've been through. But, at the end of the story, it turned out the ugly duckling was so special that it actually a real swan. All thanks to its wish of praying one day it'll join the flock of swan flying across the sky (correct me if I'm wrong).

That's how life works. It can't always be pretty - it'll be so ugly at the start of everything. It'll get ugly if you don't know your self worth, trying to improve for yourself, to be the best version of yours without letting others opinion or perspective affected yourself.

As cliche as it may sounds, it take time to finally learn to understand and accept ourselves. It's okay, just like the ugly duckling - you'll get to the place where you want to be, where you meant to be. Life as we know, are phases of everything. It may not be permanent as we have the afterlife, but it's what shape you to become the person of the present and the future.

You cannot be too afraid of your yesterday, and you cannot be too anxious of your tomorrow. Because what's matter the most is today, right at this moment. You gotta do something about whatever you can for, your kemampuan to give out the best and leave the rest in god's hand.

And indeed we are nothing more than a speck of dust being ignite aligned by the divine power - as long as you have faith in yourself and on the All Mighty.

I'll catch up with you guys later. Thank you once again for stopping by. Till' next time!

ps: oh the feeling of peace, tranquility and calm for getting to write after months. Thank god!